Im already dead inside

I'm never what I seem, it's like I'm walking through a dream.

Sun, 18 May 2008 08:10:59 GMT

I’m so glad that the big tests are over for me. a whole week of tests. sheesh! But now im done and only about a month of school left too!!! =D

anybody gonna see "the dark knight"? i think its gonna be awesome! i wanna se it so bad. ahaha. i just think joker's gonna be awesome. Especially with that tag line "why so serious?" haha

its soooooooooooooooooooo hot!!! California needs to cool down! ahaha, i hate the heat.

Anyone going to warped tour? its gonna be sweeeeet this year. But hot lol I’m going on august 16th.

ok, enough of me rambling. Ahaha

xo

cant think of a subject, so ill just go with this. =D

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 05:36:09 GMT

well, my spring break has come to an end. and i have school tomorrow. ugh! i dont wanna go! it sucks soo much! and i think i have to dissect a fish when we come back. i dont wanna dissect a fish. thats sooo mean!!!
i havent done anything this whole week. and i should have. i should have cleaned the house so i could get money for my sidekick, but i just couldnt bring my self to feel happy about cleaning and go clean. but i will fersure do it this week.
so what about that new the hush sound cd? pretty sweet.
and that new panic at the disco cd? a dramatic change i must say, but is surely good. i love'em both!
anyone heard of blood on the dance floor? totally awesome band!!! =D go check'em out!!!
i dont have much to say. lol
so ttyl for now!

xo violet

i feel neutral?

Sun, 23 Mar 2008 00:38:44 GMT

ahh, i dont know what to think. my sister is going on tour with linda strawberry and audrey kitching. it starts from may 1st to may 12th. i know i should feel happy for her. and i do. but im just soooo sad!!!! this is the longest we've been apart from eachother. and we're really really close. of course this is a great opprotunity, but im just sad that shes leaving. AND theres the used concert on may 4th!!! ahh, ive never seen them before. and i would love to go. but my sis cant take me. maybe i can get my dad to. maybe this will be good for both of us. i dunno how it will be good for me but whatever. haha. and shes gonna bring me something from each state she visits. so more presants for me. right? lol
ahh, it feels good to vent.

xo- Violet

The circus is coming

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 09:48:00 GMT

Hurry! Hurry!

The circus is here!!!

Gather up all your friends and fends.

Come on! Let’s go before it’s too late!

One and all come to this tragic moment in time.

(Ringmaster)

“Harlequins”

They’re spreading gossip and evil into the world.

But can we stop them?

Is it possible?

Anything’s possible in this world of flamboyant colors.

“Bearded ladies”

They might be a bit ugly on the outside.

But they have a heart of gold.

They’re nothing like those evil harlequins.

“Tallest man in the world”

Everybody gawks at him as if he were some kind of monster.

Did he do something wrong?

No, he just lived each day to its fullest.

He’s as gentle as a flower.

He would never hurt a fly.

“The strongest man in the world”

With a body made of bronze he is strong.

So handsome.

Making all the ladies swoon and drool.

But answer me this, is he really strong inside?

He has things from the past that will never leave his mind.

Haunting him in his sleep.

Eating him away as he wakes for the day.

“Clowns”

All that makeup, just hiding what can’t be seen.

Disguising all that they don’t want you to see.

The real ugliness behind their painted masks.

These clowns did terrible misfortunes that will never be forgiven nor forgotten.

I wouldn’t call them evil, but most definitely dead on the inside.

They practice all those carbon copied smiles in the mirror in which lies.

“Lion tamer”

You see him snap his head back every time the lion closes his mouth.

But every time, he really wishes he hadn’t pulled back so fast.

“Trapeze artists”

You see them swing and dancing in the sky.

Will they ever fall?

What’s their meaning for doing this?

They really wish that every time their partner catches them they hadn’t.

“Fire breathers”

They breathe that fire so far.

They don’t care if they get burned.

It just eases their pain.

Every time, they wish they would just swallow the fire and burn their insides.

Maybe than it would kill what is ugly.

Kill the ugliness inside.

“Animals”

If you look and watch how they have no smile.

Abused and mistreated.

Why would they even smile?

“Me?”

Don’t ask about me.

I created all these creatures, they live within my mind.

Now tell me, do you really think I'm a good guy?

All of this is just an act to become a legend.

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this is my first poem posting on here. i actuallly like this one. my sis added a few lines to it and reread it and all that jazz. i hope ya like it. hahaha!

xo- Violet

umm, im new.

Wed, 08 Aug 2007 08:58:00 GMT

yeah, im new. and i don't know how to work this thing. hopefully i got it right. but anyways. i probably won't be on this much. cause i have a buzznet. if ya have one, add me! my username is musicxaddict. and cause im new to this and i don't know how to work everything. people please don't yell at me if i do something wrong. it probably wasn't on purpose. so anyways, if anybody can help me. please tell me. well, i don't think i need help right now. but please offer me some help, so if i do ever need it. and yeah. do people even talk on here???? im kinda confused on that. or do you just write in journals? thats one thing im confused about. so please contact me some how. however people contact people on here. just help me out. please. i know i probably sound really dumb haha. but i cant help it. im new! so yeah, thats about it. lol =)

xo- violet